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::Jess//[jeblue]
About:
"My name's Jess I love coffee, drugs, and music! yeah!! {:"
Links:
"www.myspace.com/jeblue
www.flickr.com/photos/jeblue
www.spiraleyes.com
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"I don't like features"
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08/12/07
Saturday 07:22am] |
I saw the man standing over my bed.
Pointing large fingers down at my head.
Large, small, black, white
I pulled the covers over my face, in fright
The words he screamed, erupted like a volcano
Spewing down, scolding me like the earth
Where the flowers once grew is now decayed
I thought I was going to die
But instead of killing me, he molded me
Into what he wanted me to be
No longer was I a free spirit in flight
I was still alive
But dead inside
Like a statue, I stood
Watching my memorys, and life pass me by
Till this day
I never understood why
The molten rock was confused, so was I
As the first sprout of life
emerges
I'm not dead.
I'm still alive
I just stood there for a while
Lost in time.
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| North Carolina. |
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01/12/07
Saturday 04:05am] |
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Yeah. I moved back.
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| i am deeply in love |
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14/11/07
Wednesday 09:25pm] |
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with devin.
i love him so much.
but love scares me.
<3
know what i mean?
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| Dear Devin Tyler Marrs, |
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04/11/07
Sunday 07:13am] |
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I love you babe.
Last night I got wasted and snorted some loratabs with these people across the street. I felt amazing then. Only wish I could say that about today.
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02/11/07
Friday 01:41pm] |
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I am a human being, flesh, cells, bones, heart, and all.
Just like you.
I breathe
I laugh
I speak
I cry
But most importantly; I love.
And I love you.
Because just like me; you are a human being.
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| i like periods |
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02/11/07
Friday 07:28am] |
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mudvayne - happy |
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because they mean i am not pregnant.
hahaha.
ahhhhhh
fucking cramps, go fucking die.
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| happy halloween. |
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30/10/07
Tuesday 10:22pm] |
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devin is in jail, but his mom is bailing him out as soon as she gets a phone call.
he has to be here tonight, mad jack is coming over and is bringing a pound of weed.. I have a bottle of vodka, and have more money for more alcohol. he's going to jump off the roof and scare little kids when they knock for candy.
I just smoked some weed with his mom, lol. she is awesome. i love these people man. theyre not perfect but who is?
i am rambling.
so while i am rambling, i guess i should blog about how much i love devin and how i miss him, and how amazing he is. he's so perfect...well in my eyes. ive never had a boyfriend care so much about me like he does. i really hope nothing ruins this one. but we promised eachother whatever tried to come between us, wouldnt.
okay. well. yeah.
everyone have a good halloween and stuff. it's an excuse to be a fatass.. take advantage of it!
<3 Jess
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| then suddenly... |
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25/10/07
Thursday 04:13pm] |
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everything becomes clear.
there is no doubt.
only you and me.
left in this world, full of spinning colors.
we are only flesh and blood.
let go of everything darling, and hold on to me.
♥
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| I don't believe in true love. |
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25/10/07
Thursday 07:35am] |
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I believe you can love anyone.
It's mutual attraction which leads to falling in lust, then love.
Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
You can determine whether it succeeds or fails.
The spirit and love inside of you is far stronger than words, or anger.
Choose to love, not hate.
And you will find harmony with another person.
On another note, I'm leaving the 30th to move to New Port Richey, Florida. I'll arrive there on the 31st.. at 7pm. To be with my baby. <3
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| Moving to Florida. |
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23/10/07
Tuesday 09:54am] |
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I am the Walrus - The Beatles |
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Yep, I am moving to Florida soon to live with Devin. <3
That's Dev, he's amazing..
My mom is kicking me out, so I need a place to go and his mom is cool as fuck.. she wants me to live with them. Devin and I are most likely going to end up dating again.. I love him so much, he really is a beautiful person inside and out. So all I have to do is figure out where I'm going to get the money for the bus ride, and I'm leaving ASAP.
<3
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18/10/07
Thursday 10:32pm] |
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drinking zyrtec because i dont want to be sober... wow im cool.
edit dxm too
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14/10/07
Sunday 10:40pm] |
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Mnemic - in the nothingness |
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i have it all under control now.
i have this plan in my head... about what to do with my life. with everything. things are undoubtedly going to get better.
keep my niece and uncle in your positive thoughts, they are both in the hospital right now<3
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| i am america |
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10/10/07
Wednesday 01:59am] |
AND SO CAN YOU!!!
buy it!
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| My Birth Day |
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07/10/07
Sunday 03:54pm] |
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is coming up in two days. (October 9th)
For all of you who don't know, it was 17 years ago when my real mother gave me up for adoption. She was addicted to drugs and alcohol, already had two other children who she couldn't take care of. It's depressing probably to most to hear about it, but I'm thankful. She could have easily had an abortion or put me into foster care.
I don't need a party to celebrate my birth day. Your birth day is about enjoying life, and being alive. Sure I get depressed sometimes, and want to die, but I'm still here holding on, and the moral of the story is; I'm thankful to be alive!
♥
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07/10/07
Sunday 05:25am] |
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| lifev is good |
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05/10/07
Friday 01:37am] |
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smoke smoke smoke that ganja
until you think you cant no more
smoke smoke until life is good
good is life
so smoke some more
chill chill eat bud
let you mind flow free
around the music symbols
keep your eyes shut
the smell of ganja in the air
flows your spirit without a care
inhaling calls the greenday gods
they invoke your spirit
the cells in your brain
electrocuting them
putting old thoughts to shame
new and revived is your
third eye's vision
life is no longer one big obsticle
but an obsticle course within its self
each obsticle; new, fun, exciting
filled with sin and compassion
cheef on until your mind escapes
you, and you drift off into another
consciousness.
a consciousness full of
inescapable
reason.
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04/10/07
Thursday 10:04pm] |
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family. |
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hello chestbones, welcome back! i've missed you<3
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